Everything Sucks

I don't understand why you keep doing this to me. You keep hurting me. And you don't see it at all. You're completely oblivious. I don't understand. How can you not see? I'm right in front of you. WHY DON'T YOU SEE ME?

Shit

DearMr. Cross, Remember me? The one you used to love? I was the one you called everyday. The one you made plans with, not weeks or even days in advance. I was the oneyou called everytime you first opened your eyes. The one who called you just to say "What's up?" when hanging out wasn't an option. The one to see your face light up with laughter, the one to catch your tears. I was the one who calmed you down. I wasn't the who hurt you. I wasn't the one you tell me about. I wasn't the one you "never want to see again." I wasn't that one. I was the one whom you called over every exciting moment. The one you called when I needed you. The one to see youfall. The one to see you get up again. The one who listened when your life changedforever.The one to go with you on gutsy trips. The one who wants to holdyour hand. The one you said"No," to but I still wanted to be your friend. The one who thinks your hair color should stay the same. The one who is getting tired of all this.I'm right here, where are you?P.S. I can't pretend I'm happy with all of this anymore. I hatewho we've become because it's not really us. I just want you back. I want to be the one.

Future Fun Weekend

So today was awesome. I didn't get to school till halfway through 4th. After 5th, Meg and I went to the mall and bought new Chucks at Journey's. They're my seventh pair. I'm in love. I also boughtfour pairs of earrings for Meg and I, two different kinds at Hot Topic. Then we went back to school for the pep rally. I won simon says. I got a 20 dollar gift certificate to the Cherry Hill Mall. I'm excited for tonight. We have Chris' party. It's gonna rock. Gary, MB, and Crit are getting a ride with Ky and I. Then tomorrow I'm open to whatever. Sunday I'm probably working then whatever. Monday my aunt's coming over andI'm getting fitted for my wedding dress for my last scene. I also have aHalo party at Adam's which is gonna be fricken hot. Last night was awesome. Gary and I wentto BCC. I got my book for class and my transcript request.I also boughtan Absolut biography and Gary bought Godiva which we'll probably eat tonight. Then we wentto the Cherry Hill Mall. I bought Weird NJ 2 and Gary bought mea book of a bunch of Edgar Allen Poe's work. I <3 him. It's so hott. Then I went over Kyle's for a little bit. My senior yearis starting to get better. It's almost over...